I am going to reflect on my first time returning home experience. I was so excited to finally see home and my family and friends that I hadn't seen for over two months. Right when I got home, though, I quickly realized why I decided to leave in the first place. I feel like I'm suffocating in that small, crowded house. The night started off relatively unhappy because my dad didn't like my nose ring, and my mom said she was disappointed that I did that as well, and also my feather in my hair. It wouldn't have been so bad if it was just that night I had to hear about it, but they reminded me every day of their distaste. I don't want to seem misleading because I do love my family, but they drive me nuts sometimes! Then I went to the New London library to try to finish homework (and I didn't even get as far as I had hoped due to limited online database access and lack of patience for any more smartwork). I then visited with my best friend and another friend who was at her house as well. I was very glad to catch up, but I found out that she had done some things that I am totally against and I was upset, but didn't show it much in front of her. The next day, Friday, I hung out with Adam and I did have fun disc golfing (and cried I was laughing so hard after he successfully got two of his discs and a large stick stuck up in the tree while trying to get the original disc down) and watching tv at his house. Unfortunately, I was also sad at the same time because I realized that it was very unlikely that we would get back together again and that we would only be friends. Saturday was much better when I went shopping with another friend and then my godmother took my sister and me to see Footloose, which is a great movie! Then I went to church and found out a lot had changed and I felt out of the loop.
Basically, I would say that my fall break was about 50% good and 50% disappointing. I did get to see some family and friends and some of the time was good quality, but it was disappointing that my family didn't change at all, some of my friends did, and I'm living two lives (Wisconsin and Iowa) at the same time and trying to keep up with both, but its very difficult and I have been focused more on my Iowa life because that's where school is, which is currently my main focus. I have about a month now to put all of my focus on school and maybe I won't be as distracted when it comes closer to Thanksgiving break since I have a feeling things will play out the same way as fall break. Hopefully with that in mind, I will be able to concentrate much better than right before fall break.
Sorry your parents threw a fit over your nose ring. You could always tell them it's Biblical to have one! ;) I actually played Rebecca in a church skit a few years back and put a clip earring in my nose. Everybody was laughing - it was pretty funny! You are a young lady with very high morals and standards; you get that from your parents. I'd imagine that they saw it as an act of rebellion and worry about what other choices you might make. Yes, they need to learn to trust that you will be able to make those decisions on your own. A parent never stops being a parent (even when you are 40 years old and you have to call your mother every few hours from the road to let her know you are okay!). I would imagine you just scared them a little bit.
ReplyDeleteGoing away is hard on both you and your parents. You are a great person and it will all be okay!